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NEVER AGAIN Copyright. 4/24/98
by Adam Davenport
You can╒t put the blame on anybody but yourself
You can╒t condemn me to the Hell that you are already burning in
Don╒t try to make me suffer for your sins
I╒ve had enough of these devious ways.
I don╒t even know how I could have fallen in love with you
How could I have been so blind to not realize how deceptive you are
Why did you beat around the bush with me?
What were you trying to accomplish?
Well, I let my heart be too open...
Open to let you just try and just shatter my heart into a million pieces.
But no, I can not let myself be abused like that
I will not tolerate your attempted bruises
I didn╒t deserve to endure all that I╒ve gone through with you
Don╒t even dare to deny all those empty promises.
I say all those things to you....
I can╒t lie and say it never happened
I can╒t lie and say that I hate you
Because I remember all the good times we shared together
I have to admit that I did fall in love with you
My heart aches for it misses your affection
All those moments of intimacy...
All those gentle kisses...
That deepest and sensual bond
Where did it go wrong?
Do you still love me?
I know that deep down inside,
Those feelings exist,
Yet they need a flame to reignite
We can╒t start that passion again.
But we can if we want to
I know, for the human spirit has that power
But I╒m so confused
I long for your embrace, your grin, your wild, and flowing hair
But I don╒t want to be hurt again
They say that history repeats itself
So why should things be different this time?
I don╒t desire to make the same mistake twice
I love you, I really do, but that same passion is eating me alive
I need to be with you, but somehow I feel that I can╒t
I╒ve never felt so split in my life
Others say that they don╒t even know why I should consider you
They say that you got what you wanted and left
My friends say that I can do much better
They wish that you ╥go back to the rock from which under you came╙
I wonder if their advice plays any influence on my thoughts
You call me on the phone
You tell me how much you miss me
You want to know if I can be yours again
I think over everything...
Those fondest memories
Those hellish nightmares
Those dreams that we wanted to work so hard to achieve
But we fell so short of that fantasy
It was an illusion.
Your lies..
All those empty promises...
All the times that you just weren╒t there
And I was all so alone
I was in a relationship by myself
Except for those rare moments where you cared to be with me
But it seems that those nightmares outweigh those dreams
I can╒t ignore my past with you or else I would just be lying to myself
If I lied to myself, I would become just as bad as you were
If I gave you myself again, I would be risking too much
Maybe you have changed
Perhaps your isolation from me has truly changed you
But maybe you haven╒t changed at all
I don╒t know
I may never know that
And I can╒t risk that uncertainty despite the fact you say you are ╥reformed now╙
Maybe I╒m being unreasonable
Have you forgotten all that you╒ve done to me?
I certainly haven╒t
Even though I want to, I can╒t block out the past
I tell you that
You begin to protest
You blame me
Last time was my fault
Oh, really?
Well that is what I have to say about that
You can╒t put the blame on anybody but yourself
You can╒t condemn me to the Hell that you are already burning in
Don╒t try to make me suffer for your sins
I╒ve had enough of those devious ways
Never can I go back to that living Hell
Never shall I return to that nightmare that left me traumatized.
Never again shall I open my wounded heart to you
Never again shall I give that special part of me to you